So far I am over my cellphone minutes by 157 minutes @ 40 cents a minute

60 some dollars..

I have until the 24th...


Oh.. and...

I get tires on my car on friday!

I mentioned in my last journal entry about remodeling my life.

I mentioned moving to Florida

I mentioned Jon being lazy.

Now that I am in a better state of mind I will elaborate.

In my eyes I saw Jon as being lazy. But the thing is... I didn't actually ask Jon about the applications he was putting in. I just assumed since I didn't see anything that he wasn't trying. He was trying. Maybe not as hard as I would try but he was trying.

Anyways... i threatened to move to florida and he brought me flowers and this really sweet card to true value. Her told me that the next day he had a meeting with a navy recruiter. And well... the next day he called me and asked me if I would wait for him if he joined the bootcamp I told him I would..

And the plan was for him to leave for bootcamp in september... but now he wants to leave as soon as he drops the weight (20lbs) Which will probably be in July sometime. He'll be home in September and we'll see where we are at then.

This may seem crazy.. but I want to go where he goes...
I love Jon. And if he fixes his financial problems I know I can spend the rest of my life with him.




I want somebody to sleep with the rest of my life, cuddle up during a movie, on a couch. Stay up all night talking about nothing. Get lost in the woods together. Challenge me, challenge him. Talk about dreams, make dreams. Have fights, the kind that only really matter just as long as you're having them. Someone I can wrestle with, you know, play hard sometimes & not worry about breaking a nail or an arm. A guy who will bring me flowers, once in a while, maybe a rock too or a shell of some sort. Something he saw that made him think of me, made him think "this might make my girl smile"
as he smiles to himself. A guy who wants me, maybe even needs me, just a little, enough to hold onto me with everything he's got...

^that= Jon <3

I will probably add on to this later or post a follow up entry...

He is leaving for Florida.. I thought that if he ever got that job I would be relieved. I cried. I don't want him to go.. I'm not ready to let go... and I feel like as long as he is around the corner from me I don't have to let go just yet...

My boyfriend is lazy. He'll argue that point... But he is... I just want him to get a job. Get a car. And he isn't trying that hard.

I think he has only put in 2 applications... He has others at home.. but they aren't filled out...

I tried talking him into the Navy.. Something... He really has no motivation.. and He needs a good kick in the ass..

He wants me to go to Florida with him...

the sad thing is.. I would go in heart beat if i could...